Day 338: Unfocused

Day 338: Unfocused

What do I need to do differently?

Today was my due date, come and gone. Today was supposed to be the day that my 2nd draft was finished, and I could go back to work tomorrow with the weight of that project lifted from my shoulders.

It didn’t happen.

Let’s see…I had rent this morning to take in, then it was a showing and maintenance right when I got home and after that I realized I was starving, so I finally ate breakfast…and suddenly it was noon. And then I was really freaking tired, so I slept for two hours and it was 2:30. I ate some lunch, and that was when I finally sat down, around 3:30, and I wrote. I wrote 15 pages, in fact, before Liz and I met up to go over some financial stuff together. Then, apartment showings happened at 6:00pm and one of the two actually applied for the unit, which is great. I ran their stuff while Liz made some dinner, then we ate, and bam, it was 9:30. I sat down to get more writing done, and ended up updating all my bill payment accounts with our new checking and it was 10:30 going on 11:00. I was shutting down, the day was already over.

That’s a typical scenario for the past two weeks.

I think it’s the late start. That kills me. Both with writing, and with editing. If I’m not a 3rd of the way through my work day by 1pm, I’ll usually fail that day. It’s just been so freaking hard with all this apartment stuff to do. It never freaking stops. I have to be better about compartmentalizing my time with it. Relegate those duties to specific sections of each hour in the day. I’ve done it before, guys. I *can* do it again.

Okay. Yes. See, this has been helpful. I can do that. I can totally do that.

I also need to plan out my day tomorrow, which I’ve already decided is going to be a writing day. As much as I want this script to be good, it’s actually far more important that it just be DONE. I have to have something that I can pass around for feedback. THAT’S the only way it’s going to get any better. Not from me sitting around trying to THINK about it. I need it done. So, that’s the goal again tomorrow, and will be the goal until it’s fucking finished.

So, I revise that: the goal tomorrow is MOMENTUM. I need a focused day. Like I need air. Breathe in, breathe out. Focus. I’m going to schedule out my day, and that will be that. No naps. Just pages. All of them.

Which means I need to go to bed.

Good night, guys. Wish me luck. And focus.