Tonight’s artwork is by Roger Dean
I was tired today…I don’t mean so much that I was sleepy, although I did have that too at the beginning of the day…no I mean that my mind was tired today. It was just one of those days where the weight of the fact that life never stops just feels like its pressing squarely down on your shoulders.
Oh, and I don’t mean that I’m unhappy with my life. Not at all. Quite the opposite, you guys. Life right now is wonderful. I love my wife, I love my dogs, I love my work, and I’m also doing what I love to do in writing. It’s just that it never stops, you know 😛 There is *always* more to be done. With work, with writing, with the apartment building…it can make a person tired every so often. Or, fatigued. That’s a much better word, I think.
That just made me think of the parents out there who would rightly laugh at me saying that I feel fatigued today…now KIDS…there are forces of nature who truly never stop. I definitely not that kind of fatigued, to be sure. I have one of these days, oh, every month or so…parents have that shit on the daily. It is pretty easy, however, to lament having worked such a long time on something (like writing), only to reset and have another mountain to climb with it, or any other new project. That’s probably at the root of what I’m feeling tonight, for sure. I have a feeling it’s a cycle that’s common, unavoidable, and likely going to be a part of my life from now on if I continue writing. Rewrite blues.
I know just the cure for it, however: continue working on my new sexy project that’s still all shiny and untarnished by, you know, actual execution.
Work was slightly more of a slog today, but honestly nothing major. I ended up a minute+ shy of my total goal for the day, but that’s incidental. I’m all lined up for tomorrow, and it’s all gravy baby. I’m thinking about spreading my last make-up day, the one single day that I’ve been behind since the third week of January, spreading that out over the last four days of the month. Work a couple hours each day. It’d be emenently doable, and probably much more chill than working another full extra day on Friday like I’d originally planned. I want to start March on a full tank, you feel me?
I got into a section today of several TOS episodes that I’ve never actually seen before. I’m technically not “seeing” much of them, but I’m still definitely able to get most of the goings-on. Not sure if I wrote about it last night, but that show really hit a stride in the second third of season two. The writing is waaayyy more crisp, the characters are more fun, the stories are honestly very much the same plot-wise, but they’re just more FUN because the writing is better. It’s been a fun routine; I listen to music for the first half+ of the day, and then at night I put on Trek in the background, and that keeps me going to the end so I don’t fizzle out. It’s working, I can say that much.
Looking ahead, I have tomorrow to focus on and get through, then I have another draft to pump out on the Icarus pilot, and some significant progress to make on the new pilot outline/research. For that, I think I get to buy Indiana Jones on BluRay. The first three, none of that Crystal Skull shit…or maybe that too, just so I can see how NOT to do what I want to do. It’s a lot. But…I can handle it.
Peace out, homies! Pray for Nimoy…he’s not doing so well.