Day 224: The Struggles

Day 224: The Struggles

Man…today was a struggle.

I didn’t really have a reason to be “foopy” (as the Ho calls it), I just was. Woke up late and tired, sat down to work, and just couldn’t do it. Very, very frustrating.

There was some stuff, apartment-wise that was frustrating, but nothing more than usual. Stuff with editing work was fine. I’d had a tiring weekend, sure, but no more than the weekend before. But, there I was, staring at my computer screen feeling like I wanted to be unconscious.

I do know what a large part of it is; my routine is getting messed up in a few days to go up north for the engagement party. Happy tidings, for sure, no doubt about that. But, it is messing with my head. I know that I have three days of work to get done, and it’s not going to be on a regular schedule. I also know that we’re leaving Friday to go up north, so I had a day to just futz around. And, I took it. I’m not very happy about it, but I did.

Tomorrow is getting messed up with a haircut, ie- I won’t be starting work till around 1pm…so that also sucks. I could have used time today to at least get those first 3 hours out of the way, but I didn’t.

I don’t know…it was just a collapse today. Not something I was expecting, but now I understand why. It’s because of the trip out of town. I feel like a child, whenever I act this way. Having a tantrum because something is being changed. It’s not something about myself that I like.

So…tomorrow has to be different. It’s that simple. Get my hours in. Stick to my schedule. Set myself up for success by finishing my work week strong. And, that’s what’s going to happen. I’m not getting myself behind. Nor does tomorrow need to be anything other just than 1 normal day of work. Nothing extra. Just a normal day. With a haircut.

I can do it.

I will do it.

I’m also saying right now that I’m giving myself a pass on the writing for tomorrow only. Let’s get the editing work done. Writing can re-commence on Wednesday. That is happening. My goal this week writing-wise is to get myself ready to begin the massive re-write next week. I’ve worked myself a quarter or so through the script, and I need to finish that. I should definitely be able to before leaving for Humboldt County.

Yeah…good night guys. Wish me better spirits tomorrow.

Tonight’s artwork is courtesy of madddscience.